Hey everyone
Well despite a great night, last night was also sad. I had to say goodbye to Jen : ( I will miss you!
Today I woke up feeling down…I knew I would be saying more goodbyes to my friends. Lori and I met Gina and Tom at 105 degrees for breakfast before they started their road trip back to GA.
I ordered a green juice with a cacao pear muffin
Lori ordered a green juice with the cinnamon-orange bun
And we shared a side of almond toast
Me, Gina, and Tom all enjoying our last breakfast at 105 degrees 
This is the sad part about when your vacation or some experience has to come to an end… you make all these new friends and than before you know it is time to say goodbye.
As we were eating Greg and Whitney came in to get a smoothie for the road. They both are heading out today…so I said my goodbyes to them : ( In addition I said goodbye to Sonja and Kelly. So not the best way to start the day and having cloudy rainy weather outside did not help my mood either. Though I tried to make the most of it!
I could not sit in the hotel, because I did not want to think. So Lori and I went for a drive. We had no real destination in mind, just drove around as we talked. We had a lot to talk about but were just not feeling happy. We tried to go workout but even that did not lift our spirits. Weird I know, but I have so many emotions and thoughts inside me that I am having a hard to time sorting them out.
I have learned a lot here, especially over the last 24 hours. I have learned I cannot make people like me, I cannot make everyone happy, all I can do is live my own life, try to be a good example, and hopefully along my journey help one or maybe 2 people along the way. All I want to do is help show people that living a raw foods lifetsyle means embracing life, chosing life, and respecting your body. All the presenters yesterday mentioned how we all have a choice, we have to find how choosing raw foods, choosing to exercise, can positively change our quality of life. We all have to take everything in that we read, hear, or watch because everyone has what they believe is the raw foods lifestyle. So remember you have to find what works for you.
I have also learned that people that choose this way of living are genuinely nice people. They all want to share their stories hoping they can touch someone to make a positive change. Well they all touched me…and well I came here with ideas of what I thought, what I believed, what I thought I knew but now I have a lot of things I want to sort out.
I am very grateful for this experience, for all the people I have met, and for all that I have learned. I am going to miss this place….having a place I could go and eat and not have to worry about what I am eating… is the best feeling ever, which makes it hard to leave. I always wonder why do raw foodies/vegans/vegetarians are the ones always having to explain themselves? What makes us different? Why can’t people understand that these lifestyle/dietary choices make us happy, they make us feel good, why is that so hard to believe?
Lori and I had our last dinner tonight at 105 degrees and both still were not in the best of moods. I don’t know what it was, something in the air, or a vibe we were feeling, but it is just making me even more confused because I thought being around people that shared similiar interest would be a good thing.
We both were not that hungry so we kept dinner light and simple. We split the red sweet pepper wrappers and the spicy vegetable summer rolls and both got a side of kale chips (in honor of Gina 
) We also ordered the green tea tropical tea.
Hey it was cold outside
We plan on having our breakfast there again tomorrow before heading to the airport! Hopefully we both wake up with more mental clarity tomorrow morning. Time to get to packing.
Hmmm…well I will have a lot of time tomorrow on my flights to think…which for me is not always a good thing.
Till next time,
Michelle & Lori
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It’s hard sometimes to be different, isn’t it? I used to always want to please people and not have anyone dislike me or my choices in life. Nowadays I surround myself with people who are okay with living life against the grain. That means I’ve lost touch with a lot of friends because our lifestyles just don’t jive anymore, but that’s okay. It goes beyond the food choices for me — I’ve got a lot of “controversial” opinions about many things, and those are tough opinions to accept for most people who just want to live life according to social norms. I’ve found that a lot people will get downright vicious, nasty, and angry if you try to challenge the ideas that have been indoctrinated into them by society, so I just keep my mouth shut now. Needless to say, my main goal in life is now to live on a farm in the middle of nowhere.
I am putting up a post in about 2 hours that is going to possibly explain your mood. Hint, from a yoga perspective it has to do with the moon phase. Read my post when it’s up, it is what you’re going thru to a T.
In the meantime, thank you for such an honest post. I hate explaining myself and wish the tables were turned. And now, with a little age (and motherhood!) on my side, I don’t explain anymore. I tell people we/I have researched our choices, they work for me/us/our family, and we are happy. Thank you for your input, that’s interesting, etc. but we are happy with our choices. And then be done explaining myself b/c it makes me give up my power when I am the one explaining…so I try not to anymore
I am so glad you believe that most raw foodies are nice IRL. I think in the blog world they are but don’t know any IRL so that’s nice to hear.
Anyway friend, happy nite to you. My post will shed some light I think
xoxo
I am putting up a post in about 2 hours that is going to possibly explain your mood. Hint, from a yoga perspective it has to do with the moon phase. Read my post when it’s up, it is what you’re going thru to a T.
In the meantime, thank you for such an honest post. I hate explaining myself and wish the tables were turned. And now, with a little age (and motherhood!) on my side, I don’t explain anymore. I tell people we/I have researched our choices, they work for me/us/our family, and we are happy. Thank you for your input, that’s interesting, etc. but we are happy with our choices. And then be done explaining myself b/c it makes me give up my power when I am the one explaining…so I try not to anymore
I am so glad you believe that most raw foodies are nice IRL. I think in the blog world they are but don’t know any IRL so that’s nice to hear.
Anyway friend, happy nite to you. My post will shed some light I think
xoxo
Sorry… forgot to say great post – can’t wait to read your next one!
Hey twins!
I found your site from The Fitnessista and am trying to incorporate more raw foods into my diet – so I look forward to reading!
Thank you Rosie for checking out our blog. I hope we can inspire you to try raw foods ; )
(((Hugs))) I can completely relate! I really like what you said about “I have learned I cannot make people like me, I cannot make everyone happy, all I can do is live my own life, try to be a good example, and hopefully along my journey help one or maybe 2 people along the way.” ……It’s something that I always have to remind myself but don’t really do a great job at. I’m a people pleaser at heart and it’s never been a good thing for me. This year has been such a transformation in many things but especially in the way that I view food and the way that I eat. The hard part is that, besides my wonderful husband, I really have no other support. My family eats a standard American diet with lots of fast food and think that I’m quite strange for the way I’m eating. My Mom worries about me and is always asking if I’m getting enough protein, etc. It’s hard to be different and especially to try to raise a family in a way that is different than the norm. That is why I’m so thankful for people like the two of you and all of those that I’ve met at 105. It’s an encouragement to know that I’m not alone. So…..keep doing what you do and don’t let the Negative Nancys get you down.
I know it must have been so hard to leave but now you know that you always have a home-away-from-home to visit. (And I hope you both do! )
~Kasie
Nice:) ThankssS! !